Not something I can turn my back on, give up on or walk away from.
It’s something special, something rare. Love.
It’s not easy or convenient, it’s not a sign of weakness, we’re just natural and it’s a good thing, it shows us that we’re the nicest thing, something worth everything we’ve put in.
I don’t want to see this side of life that I’m seeing now ever again, it’s not me, it’s not you and it is certainly not us. I’m innocent, you’re innocent, think about it, it’s just love and ours is strong, we can get through anything and conquer the world together, I want to see the world with you.
We just like cuddles and kisses and holding hands.
I know you more than anyone, you’re my first love, but that’s not why I love you. You’re my childhood sweetheart, but that’s not why I love you. Sure, it began as small town love, but we’ve grown up and moved to the city and I still love you, more than ever actually. I love you for you, for who you are, not who you are not. I love that we’ve grown up together. Nobody’s lives are the same as they were when we first met, we were all in school, everyone has left school now, most of us are at University like us, have a job or do nothing at all. We’ve grown up, but we don’t need to grow apart. These are our best years and I know I want to share them with you because the best is only better together.
What’s mine is yours and what’s yours is mine… Family and friends, a relationship that took all this time to build, listen to the right people who want what is best for you because they know I’m a nice thing and wouldn’t think bad of you for choosing to give me a chance, the people that would aren’t true friends. I know your family wouldn’t stand in the way of us, everyone knows deep down what we’re going through and everyone knows it’s not easy. They respect that.
Say no and you’re saying no to everything. You’re saying no to me, to us, to being cared for, to being looked after, to being loved by me, by my family, by my friends because whether you see it now or not, everyone who is important to me, loves you too. You’re doing things on your own that you should be doing with me. You’re going to bed alone when you could be asleep in my arms.
What we had was big but it’s the small things you will miss.
You’re your own person, just like I am my own. I love that. I respect that. I don’t want to change that. We share more aspects of life than we don’t but those that we don’t share I have no issues with, our relationship is better for the fact that we have our own jobs, our own friends, we don’t need each other, it’s just lovely that we have each other when we would like because no friend can give you what we have, that connection, that understanding, that love. Only I can do that for you.
I don’t want forgiveness. I don’t want to forget. I haven’t been perfect, who has? All I have ever done is be honest. Naturally, we have seen ourselves through some rough times, but unlike a lot of people we have shared some wonderful times which absolutely outweigh the bad and undoubtedly have been the happiest of our lives.
Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.
I’m asking for a chance to show you, rather than tell you that I have turned my back only on bad times, I have grown up and made mistakes I will never make again. They have made me a better person, a better person within myself and can only be good for us.
I can’t promise forever but I can promise this is once in a lifetime, I can promise I’m worth it. I can promise I love you unconditionally and I will always give you a chance, I will always give you my best. Say yes and you’re saying yes to everything you love about me, about us. I want to care for you, look after you, love you. Our friends love us together. Our families love to see us happy together. Everybody misses you, but nobody misses you more than me.
Say yes and we can share the things you should be doing with your boy. Say yes and you don’t have to go to bed alone. Say yes and you don’t have to be lonely.
Say yes and we will be the people we are, we don’t like any of this, no, it’s naughty. We like making each other happy, we like being silly. We like music in my bedroom and we like cuddles in the kitchen. Yeah… BLBLBLBLBLBLBL.
I love you unconditionally and I know, for a fact, we can get through this and it will be worth it. It’s special.
Your boy.
